This week marks four weeks on my journey. And I feel like Im losing steam.
Today I feel irritated. Im staying away from everyone at work because Im annoyed. Not at anything, or anyone, in particular but just.... blah.
And it didn't help when my boss said to me, "Wow Stephanie, your legs need to see some sun." (I am currently wearing capris). Ok I get it, Im super white and my legs haven't seen the light of day since, forever. Must you point it out though? Im use to those types of comments from her, so Im not sure why I am so irritated about it?
My eating this past weekend went better than I thought it would. And I even got in that hike Friday morning. Yes I splurged on pizza and mexican food, but it was in (decent) moderation and I had my sister there to stop me from eating a mcflurry at midnight.
Then last night my husband made cookies and I had six. SIX! And my boss brought in cookies today and I had one. Without even thinking or hesitating.
Im not sure what I thinking would be different 4 weeks later. Maybe I have lost weight? Im too scared to look. Did I think I was going to be 2 sizes smaller? Patience, friend, patience.
And I think I got annoyed looking at myself in pictures this past weekend. Ugh - who is that girl? Im trying, but maybe Im doing something wrong. Maybe I need to write down my food and calories better. Maybe I need to work out everyday.
Maybe I need to stop whinning and start living my life wherever it takes me. This is only an obstacle and I will continue on my journey to stop being fat.
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Awww. I hope you perk up and feel better soon. Don't forget how awesome you have been with your workouts! I am always impressed that you were up super early and heading to the gym for that spin class. Think about your successes!
ReplyDeleteThanks Heather! Encouragement is always the best medicine :)
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